As far back as i can remember, my “home” has been a person,

never a place. And certainly never inside me.

At this stage of my life I find I have to reinvent my self and all my belief systems. Not an easy thing to do at this stage. Perhaps that’s why I’m having such a hard time adjusting to this new segment of my life. And not liking it at all.
Slowly, very slowly, I’m coming to terms with the new requirements. I don’t have to like them, I don’t have to approve. I don’t even have to want them. I just have to do it. 
Reanalyze loneliness.
Reassess poverty.
Realign expectations.
Relearn gratefulness.
Reassign productivity and direction.
but most of all, accept what has changed.
Being and then staying in a positive mindset is terribly difficult for me. I often feel I’m lying to myself, being unrealistic if even slightly optimistic. There’s truth and then there’s reality. And facts don’t always tell the whole story. So give yourself , and me, a break. It’s ok to be lonely. It’s ok to feel lost. It’s ok to make a mistake, as long as you make it right. Stay active. Sing! and love the one you’re with for as long as you have them with you.

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